Lunch

It's a simple thing, lunch. Every day, somewhere around midday, we sit to eat, something to take away the hunger that has grown since breakfast, something that will keep that hunger away until our evening meal. We all do it. It's simple.

But not for me.

Every lunch time is a challenge. What do I eat that won't be the start of the next binge. As a general rule, bread and pasta are off the menu. Nothing overly sweet, nothing that could be considered a snack. At the moment I'm on miso soup, a piece of fruit and a yogurt. It's safe. There's also points to consider; if it's low in points, there's less chance of a binge to follow. The more points I have stored, the greater the incentive to stay on track, the more control I feel I have over this. Control is good (despite the assertion of overeaters anonymous). When I am in control I am in a better position than when I'm consciously attempting to not be controlling.

My dilemma, today though, is lunch. Namely our late christmas lunch with our boss. For one reason or another (not many being my doing), I have managed to avoid it so far. But today that doesn't look possible. Todays it seems that I will have to do lunch. I don't know where we're going so I can't plan ahead, check the menu, work out the lowest point items. I can't see which foods are safe and which should be avoided. I am completely unprepared. I am getting more and more panicked since yesterday's announcement that today was the day. I thought of calling in sick, but it would only put it off, and I need to take too much time off at the moment anyway. So, for now I panic and worry.